I cried as soon as I got home not knowing what to do. Here was my chance yet it seemed that someone was stopping me from taking it.

I spoke to my best friend on the phone. Her words still stain my mind: "If you go, at least you can forget your problems, even if it's only for a few days." I decided to go.

Sometimes I wish I didn't have to decide. I want both. However, one thing's for sure. I think I will leave it up to fate to decide.

I agreed that it would be very difficult for the two of us to be together because of it.